I’m a few years ahead of you on this journey, D- Anne. The wound never completely heals and life will never be the same, but the pain does soften with time. Try to build on every spark of joy you discover! We can be whole again. I’ve changed from who I was five years ago, different, but beginning to like the person I’ve become as I’ve learned to live on my own - in spite of the hole in my world. Wishing you well!